Choices , hard choices

Even loving you so I can not
choose

There are a thousand reasons to accept
There are a thousand other reasons for not

I'm afraid to hurt again
I'm afraid of making mistakes as before
I'm afraid of wasting time
I'm afraid that we can not work

Maybe my choices do not lead anywhere
Maybe destroy my life, our lives
Perhaps right choice
But what is certain today

Gotta hit
But my fear holds me